Okay, so I’m always amazed then I go to DA gallery where every piece art is cohesive. The artist has a definite style that is set in stone, their concept of color translates between all of their works, common themes… I MEAN FOR GOD’S SAKE THEY PAGES AND PAGES OF ART THAT LOOKS EXACTLY THE SAME!

Then I go to my gallery. Anime here, realism here, surrealism there, a portrait in the corner, over there is a logo, peppered with 3d renderings..? Sometime I wonder if visitors think I’m schizophrenic.

So what the hell is wrong with me? Why can’t I get it together as an artist? I mean the aforementioned artists with their shit together, do you want to know how old they are? Like 18-25! And here I am on the end of that spectrum and I still have no idea of who I am as an artist.

One week I want to do comics, the next I want to do photorealistic. One day I’m all about purple, the next poka dots. One hour it’s super smooth airbrush, the next it’s grunge all the way!!

There are some explanations, a lot of my gallery right now is school work, and each assignment had to meet a set of requirements. The graphic design is obviously my profession, and you can’t make it as a one trick pony in graphic design….

The simple answer. Yes, I am schizophrenic. I love super cute anime and dark gothic rock. I love black and white photos, and “hurt-your-eyes” rainbow colors, I want to be a hippie-punk,-goth lolita-geek chic chick. I like shinny happy web 2.0 designs and grungy “I just threw it in a greasy paper bag and shook it” designs. My radio has 2 preset buttons, hard rock and public jazz radio. I have a pollyamours relationship with both Photoshop and Illustrator. And when I sit down to draw I’m not necessarily thinking, “Okay, time to make another installment in my series.” I’m thinking “Okay, how can I best get out that wacky thought that’s been playing in my head like a broken record.”

I have an underlying style. I usually handle the framework of eyes, noses, mouths, and basic body structures the same, but the facades change from piece to piece.

Some would say that makes me a bad artist, I tend to think I’m… flexible. It’s something I was taught to be as a graphic designer. Before I went to school I did have a set style I never deviated from.

But maybe I should just crank out anime fan art mindlessly. Put a few more HAJIxSAYA romantic “will they or wont they?” pics in there. I mean that’s all that is popular in my gallery. At least that’s what the numbers tell me -_- (and don’t get me wrong I love doing fan art like any one else, it’s a guilty pleasure, but sometimes I do have thoughts while not looking at the TV you know)

I’m an artistic ninja. You’ll never know where I’ll be.